Sunday, April 26, 2009

Night in the Lonesome... April?

So yeah.
As I stood there earlier tonight, I realized something.
A lot of things, rather. Terrible things. Things I must say, things I must do. More importantly, things I must be. And I stared out into the multicolour lights and couldn't help but feel completely alone. The sound of guitar was deafening. All I could hear was my own thoughts and voices of the dead. There was a time when I noticed that I had been standing completely still, just staring... staring...
And here, I still feel the same, yet... a bit more confused.
But one thing I am sure of is that I'm alone...
And that's how it's going to be.

Thursday, April 23, 2009

Numb...

Or nauseas, rather...
My hands are tingling.
...today feels cold.

Sunday, April 5, 2009

...and wait a little while... longer.

I'm not sure what this confused feeling is, but...
it's strange...
I'm afraid of it, if it's real...
I'm afraid of it, if it's born from loneliness...
Guess I'm just a damn coward.

Spiraled.

I'm really spiraling here...
I don't know how to save myself...
I'm not sure how long I can last this way...
Feeling this sick...
Feeling this dead.